Tomorrow-today, is 8 weeks without my husband, the man I spent every day of 25+ years with. I am sitting here wondering what I should do with this website? Do I keep it, do I take it down? We got this website to promote our songwriting and songs. Then we used it to document our journey through his cancer battle.
Sugars Always Sweeter At Home
Sugar is now officially the last Christmas song we will ever write, record and release together. Of course somewhere down the road I could come across a half written one somewhere and you never know, I just might. We wrote so much through the years that we have far more songs I have forgotten about then we recorded and released.
We have all this music we wrote together and there are so many other song ideas, half done songs and even some completed demos and songs we had future plans for. I am still fluctuating between his passing not being real to absolutely knowing he has moved onto another plane of existence. I miss him so much at certain times that it literally takes my breath away. The sting is intense and feels like it has a point at the end of it that had been lit on fire to burn.
My mind is definitely protecting my heart. I spend most days being numb with just a little bit of pain and sorrow being allowed to seep in. It is like this: "if all the pain would enter at one time, my heart would surely explode."
What would you do?
So I am asking you, the reader of this blog entry what would you do? Would you keep the website? Should I continue to do updates about my own life or should I just take it down. Does anyone care to know what is happening with me and where I will go from here? Should I release a new album of our music, an acoustic album of songs waiting for their day in the sun? Please comment below in the comment section because I am totally at a loss about what to do about this website and what comes next.
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