FEARING THE BLINKING LIGHTS INDICATING YOU HAVE A PHONE MESSAGE WHEN YOU HAVE CANCER - February 4th, 2018
The above probably applies to anybody that is sick and awaiting test results
I knew for 2 weeks what my husband's biopsy results were. I couldn't tell you before I had told him. I kept this to myself as everyone inquired and it was hard as so many of you asked. Also, once I said the words out loud it made it more real and I wanted, in fact needed to digest it a little bit more on my own so I could be stronger before sharing it with him and you all. You see, the doctor called me less than 48 hours after the surgery had been completed and told me the pathology was already back on his biopsy. When I say the doctor called me, he did but he didn't get me because he called at 8 in the morning. Instead he left a message on our home machine.
So after being exhausted and up on and off all night checking on my husband who wasn't adjusting well to a catheter, I awoke to see the light blinking on our machine. Keep in mind, there is a phone on my nightstand so before I even got out of bed, I notice the light blinking and hit play. I never thought that it would be the doctor already. After all, he told us it would be at least a week before we would have the pathology back.
After hearing what he had to say, I hit redial to try and get him but instead got the pre-surgical area at St. Thomas Hospital and was told the doctor was in surgery.
His message said that the pathology was back and that "the cancer is invasive, into the muscle of his bladder. He also said that he does not handle this but that his partner in his practice did. He said that his office would be calling to set up an appointment with that doctor. I sat up in bed shocked and scared, for him, for me, for us.
My husband was in extreme pain and we were having trouble getting his stronger pain med prescription filled because of the snow storm. It was still snowing out and I finally got ahold of the pharmacy. They agreed to hold his latest pain meds for an upgrade that the surgeon wanted and told me to drive slowly and careful to come pick up his meds.
I made it to the pharmacy slip sliding away but safely. Living up north dealing with slippery road conditions in my past got me there and would get me back home to so I could get my husband some pain relief.
When I was at the Pharmacy, I was looking for sugar free cookies for hubby. There were none and I was shocked. How could a pharmacy not have sugar free cookies. Sugar free candy YES, sugar free cookies NO. I asked an employee and she looked with me but we found none. At that point I started telling her that I am out in a snow storm to get my husband pain relief while he was recuperating from bladder cancer surgery and I wanted to get him cookies he could eat.
Greg is Type 2 Diabetes and we keep him off diabetic meds using diet. In fact, he is on a sugar free diet. At that point I lost it with the clerk much like the Mom did in the movie "Terms of Endearment" when all Shirley MacLaine wanted in the hospital was for someone to get her daughter pain meds. When you have a loved one suffering, you do what you have to do to get them some relief.
I never forgot that scene. In this day and age and time, there is never any reason why anybody we love should ever have to be in pain.
I will never understand why we are more loving and kind to our pets and put them out of their misery but our loved ones are left to suffer.
Anyhow, that is how I felt that day in the pharmacy where all I wanted to do was get my husband pain relief and a couple of cookies he could eat.
I told the clerk about the phone message left on my machine that morning and that I was doing all I could do to hold it together and at that point I lost it. I cried, she cried and she grabbed my hands and started praying for my husband and for God to give me strength to get through all that was ahead. I found great comfort in her prayers. There was a pharmacist, a pharmacist assistant, me and the cashier/clerk in Rite Aid that day. Just the four of us. The snow kept everyone else off the roads.
This Rite Aid has been fillings my husband prescriptions for 5 years so they are pretty familiar with his health ailments. They do however know that the cancer is a new addition to his already complicated and life threatening conditions. I know I have yet to tell you all of that but there seems to be so much to say right now that doesn't even touch on his history of Stroke, A-Fib and Congestive Heart Failure..
People have asked me what they can do to help. We are proud people and have always taken care of ourselves. What I would offer up at this time is there is a way you can help us while helping yourself. If you would like to make some spare cash, you can do that by taking surveys, listening to music and watching video's at home in your spare time. When you sign up using my referral code, I get a referral fee. If enough people do this, it can really add up. It can be a way that people can help us while helping your own family and that would make me feel good. I am never sitting in front of a TV without taking surveys or doing something to earn extra cash. We have so many medical bills now, many more than 6 months ago. It was tough then, it will be tougher now but we are not quitters and we won't quit now. Here is a place called Swagbucks where you can earn extra cash for your own families. My referral code is: http://www.swagbucks.com/refer/BlueEyedSongLady
The above probably applies to anybody that is sick and awaiting test results
I knew for 2 weeks what my husband's biopsy results were. I couldn't tell you before I had told him. I kept this to myself as everyone inquired and it was hard as so many of you asked. Also, once I said the words out loud it made it more real and I wanted, in fact needed to digest it a little bit more on my own so I could be stronger before sharing it with him and you all. You see, the doctor called me less than 48 hours after the surgery had been completed and told me the pathology was already back on his biopsy. When I say the doctor called me, he did but he didn't get me because he called at 8 in the morning. Instead he left a message on our home machine.
So after being exhausted and up on and off all night checking on my husband who wasn't adjusting well to a catheter, I awoke to see the light blinking on our machine. Keep in mind, there is a phone on my nightstand so before I even got out of bed, I notice the light blinking and hit play. I never thought that it would be the doctor already. After all, he told us it would be at least a week before we would have the pathology back.
After hearing what he had to say, I hit redial to try and get him but instead got the pre-surgical area at St. Thomas Hospital and was told the doctor was in surgery.
His message said that the pathology was back and that "the cancer is invasive, into the muscle of his bladder. He also said that he does not handle this but that his partner in his practice did. He said that his office would be calling to set up an appointment with that doctor. I sat up in bed shocked and scared, for him, for me, for us.
My husband was in extreme pain and we were having trouble getting his stronger pain med prescription filled because of the snow storm. It was still snowing out and I finally got ahold of the pharmacy. They agreed to hold his latest pain meds for an upgrade that the surgeon wanted and told me to drive slowly and careful to come pick up his meds.
I made it to the pharmacy slip sliding away but safely. Living up north dealing with slippery road conditions in my past got me there and would get me back home to so I could get my husband some pain relief.
When I was at the Pharmacy, I was looking for sugar free cookies for hubby. There were none and I was shocked. How could a pharmacy not have sugar free cookies. Sugar free candy YES, sugar free cookies NO. I asked an employee and she looked with me but we found none. At that point I started telling her that I am out in a snow storm to get my husband pain relief while he was recuperating from bladder cancer surgery and I wanted to get him cookies he could eat.
Greg is Type 2 Diabetes and we keep him off diabetic meds using diet. In fact, he is on a sugar free diet. At that point I lost it with the clerk much like the Mom did in the movie "Terms of Endearment" when all Shirley MacLaine wanted in the hospital was for someone to get her daughter pain meds. When you have a loved one suffering, you do what you have to do to get them some relief.
I never forgot that scene. In this day and age and time, there is never any reason why anybody we love should ever have to be in pain.
I will never understand why we are more loving and kind to our pets and put them out of their misery but our loved ones are left to suffer.
Anyhow, that is how I felt that day in the pharmacy where all I wanted to do was get my husband pain relief and a couple of cookies he could eat.
I told the clerk about the phone message left on my machine that morning and that I was doing all I could do to hold it together and at that point I lost it. I cried, she cried and she grabbed my hands and started praying for my husband and for God to give me strength to get through all that was ahead. I found great comfort in her prayers. There was a pharmacist, a pharmacist assistant, me and the cashier/clerk in Rite Aid that day. Just the four of us. The snow kept everyone else off the roads.
This Rite Aid has been fillings my husband prescriptions for 5 years so they are pretty familiar with his health ailments. They do however know that the cancer is a new addition to his already complicated and life threatening conditions. I know I have yet to tell you all of that but there seems to be so much to say right now that doesn't even touch on his history of Stroke, A-Fib and Congestive Heart Failure..
People have asked me what they can do to help. We are proud people and have always taken care of ourselves. What I would offer up at this time is there is a way you can help us while helping yourself. If you would like to make some spare cash, you can do that by taking surveys, listening to music and watching video's at home in your spare time. When you sign up using my referral code, I get a referral fee. If enough people do this, it can really add up. It can be a way that people can help us while helping your own family and that would make me feel good. I am never sitting in front of a TV without taking surveys or doing something to earn extra cash. We have so many medical bills now, many more than 6 months ago. It was tough then, it will be tougher now but we are not quitters and we won't quit now. Here is a place called Swagbucks where you can earn extra cash for your own families. My referral code is: http://www.swagbucks.com/refer/BlueEyedSongLady
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